I always wanted family, I really did. And then when the epilepsy took hold, you get older, and you talk to the doctors, and they did tell me the medication I was on would cause severe side effects in a child, and they advised me not to have a child. Which, you know, wasn’t the best news that I wanted to hear. And they told me to wait, but they didn’t know that I was going to get cured – but they just advised me not to really, and maybe think about it in the future. Maybe they knew that I could have had… I don’t know. Life goes on, life takes over, you get a job, and then in my circumstances when I did get cured, I did have the operation and the epilepsy stopped, by that time, I felt I was a bit older then, I was set in my job, I had a good job, I didn’t really want to give that up. And that sort of stopped me, really. So in hindsight, yes I would have loved a big family.
I was quite practical, because I realised that bringing up a baby when you have epilepsy, especially… I used to smoke for example, and if I had a seizure, I’d just drop my cigarette. So, you know, you could just see that if I was bathing a baby, perhaps, and I had a seizure, I’d have just dropped it. So I could understand from a health and safety point of view, that wouldn’t have been a good idea, and I would have to have had round the clock – somebody with me, all the time, every time I was with the child on their own just in case something happened. So that isn’t really practical.
